Saturday, July 30, 2005

i m not ur maid....
i m not ur son....
i m not ur servant....
i m not cinderealla....
i m not ur sand bag...
i m not ur toy....
i m not ur clown...

i m not a robot.... i m a human... i hav feling... i noe wat is tire...i noe my limit....
i m not a wonderful genie.... i m jus gal... a normal gal... jus tat i take responsibilites lik genie

pls.... dun remind me of today... i really hate today lik hell.... today is terrible...i cun describe.... is lik the whoever up there tat lok upon on me.... tat control me, played a terrible horible trick on me toda.... pls stop playing tricks on me.... pls... i cun stand it very long... i m not someone who did wrong thing.... why do u hav to trick me... as if i did sth terribly wrong? wats wrong? i m lik done nth wrong till u play trick on me... and i m lik tatking revenge... tats why do wrong things again....
in the past... i get bullied.... i bear with it i kep quiet.... i cry and cry my tears none stop.... everyday reach hm first thing cry... thn lok up the sky.... thn lok for the one who make my fate..... thn cry and lsatly hate myself.... i m lik a fool? thn is lik i m lik someone who is... did lots of things and everything gone to a terrible stop and lik someone who did alot and nobody appreciate and lik did things tat help others... and yet get sth unpleasantly bad back.... i...i always say i m a genie... i always say so... b cuz whn i tell myself i m a genie, thn i lll noe i did tis to make ppl hapy.... if i dun do tis... i d hav cry infront of everyone already multip;le numerous time.... i.. dun wan to make things worse.... i dun wan to b the evil genie... i m not...
whn things gone wrong.... is lik i m the one to b blamed.... nobody tot tat why eve4rything can lik go on so wonderfully whn they had did such little things... nobody had tot of who is the one behind there supporting everything.... controling everything to let everything go on finely lik nth wrong had happen......
i m crying now... whenever i cry nobody ll noe... cuz i dun wanna let anyone worry bout me... in the past in the present even in the future i noe.... i noe i wun cry infront of others.... cuz i dun wan others to worry bout me... i dun wanna make a burden on others..... i dun wanna b the hateful.... i dun wan to..... dun wan to b the genie... tat i hav been lik.... happiness for others... isn easy ok... :'( :''( :''q

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genie_ng out
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